Tana Mongeau has broken her silence on the state of her marriage to Jake Paul, and admits she felt ‘broken’ when photos emerged of him hanging out with his ex-girlfriend Erika Costell.
The YouTube stars surprised fans when they unofficially married in Las Vegas on 28 July following his proposal at her 21st birthday in June.
Since their wedding, Tana and Jake’s marriage has been under scrutiny due to him spending time with ex-girlfriends Erika and also Alissa Violet, sparking rumours the couple have split.
In a new YouTube video titled The Truth About Everything, Tana admits she’s ‘so unhappy’ with how her marriage has been portrayed over the past few months.
‘I’ve done so much pretending I don’t care when I do. I did so much of being the “cool girl” and not “caring” and I think I just put so much of myself into Jake that I lost myself,’ she explains to viewers.
‘It was the best feeling in the world to be so on the same page with someone, it was like a drug.’
Tana went on to explain how she battled with her mental health when people thought she was marrying Jake, 22, ‘for clout and fame’.
Shortly after their wedding, Jake was pictured hanging out with his ex Erika in Los Angeles and Tana recalls how she found out online.
‘I felt like I was opening my phone every day to something that just broke me further,’ she admits.
‘Finding out about the Erika s**t on Twitter killed me, because Jake and I had so many conversations where he like villainised her, and I spent so much time trying to be everything she wasn’t.’
Then last month, Jake released the song These Days which was inspired by his break-up from Alissa.
In promotion of the song, he shared a photo of him and Alissa kissing with their ship name, #jalissa, on jumpers.
Addressing the awkward situation, Tana says: ‘It’s very weird now with all this Alissa s**t because I spent so much time thinking he was so hurt by it.
‘To be fair, Jake did tell me he wrote this song, and that he was going to allude to being about Alissa, but I didn’t think he was gonna post that photo.’
Despite the rocky start to their marriage, Tana says she and Jake are still very much together.
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‘Jake and I both have these psycho busy lives, and trying to fit each other in just gets harder and harder, and so many things keep hurting me further,’ she said.
‘I don’t ever want to be on bad terms [with him], I don’t ever want to hate each other.’
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